Reliving the routine

I'm back in the weekend routine of getting up, doing a few things like laundry and dishes then driving to the nursing home to spend time with Jim.

I thought I was done with that in September when I brought him home.  I didn't want to think about a time when he might have to go back.  Didn't want to believe that we would be going through the same thing all over again.  I feel like he's slipping away and I can't stop it from happening. 

The new place is much nicer and the staff is very attentive an caring.  It's not as good as having him home but I feel he is being taken care of.  Tonight while we were sitting in the dining room waiting for dinner to arrive I was holding his right hand.  He has tremors in it and if I hold it sometimes it calms it a bit.  Anyway as he was holding my hand slowly he brought it up to his mouth and kissed it and then looked at me and smiled.  It was such a touching moment for me, I just wanted to grab him up, hold him and make him feel safe. 

I pray that the physical and occupational therapy he is receiving helps him enough to allow his return home.  Until then I will make the trek to see him so he knows I haven't given up on him.

Good night - - - Nancy